Prologue: Live Life

"Don't forget where you've come from. Don't forget where you've been. Keep growing, keep loving, keep exploring."

My head hurts. I skipped track camp, went home last night. I didn't train/run yesterday. I was i told i looked like a ghost so i didn't have to wear a mask/costume to scare people during the nightwalk. Haha! What.

My head feels so heavy. I think i'm having a migraine, is that how you feel when you have a migraine? When i press the spot above my eyebrow, it hurts. Not aching, but pain.

sucks.

Wednesday, May 28, 2008 @ 11:09 PM

its hard not to get influence

I'm surrounded by self-indulging,rude,diet watching,low-self esteem,depressing girls. (with an exception of a small number of my good buddys)

URGH.

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My great grandmother just passed away this morning, at a fruitful age - 99 years old.

We celebrated Clare's 19th birthday today. Happy 19th dearie! Dinner was quite good, thanks!

Everything's so mundane and moodless. I don't feel like doing anything now, other than just escaping from everything. Don't feel like going school, don't feel like training, don't feel like going camp, don't feel like taking medicine, don't feel like talking, don't feel like facing the world, don't feel like... anything.

This sickness is taking a toll on me. Its making everything even worst. STUPID BODY! GET WELL NOW NOW NOW.

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 @ 5:14 PM

Girl, Interrupted

"I know what it's like to want to die. How it hurts to smile. How you try to fit in but you can't. How you hurt yourself on the outside to try to kill the thing on the inside."

"Razors pain you, rivers are damp, acid stains you, drugs cause cramps, gun aren't lawful, nooses give, gas smells awful, you might as well live. "

Still sick :[ But i feel a leeeeeeeeel better from yesterday. The fever has gone down, throat's getting better (although i still sound like a *trans when i talk, haha) but the nose is bothering me! It never stops producing mucus. Urggh, so irritating!

I don't know if i should breathe through my nose or mouth because both nose holes are blocked and my throat is sore, so it gets a little dry and pain when i breathe through my mouth. Whhaaaa?!

Ah oh yes! Thanks for your concerns and msgs. :) I hope to go back to school tmr because the past 2 days (it feels like forever), have been leading a sedentary lifestyle and i'm starting to feel lazy and crazy. Haha, nah! Today I spent my whole afternoon watching Girl, Interrupted. This movie just shows why Angelina Jolie is a great actress. Go youtube watch!

p/s I HATE COUGH SYRUPS EEEWWW EEEEW EEEWEEE.

Sunday, May 25, 2008 @ 10:30 PM

sun heat sore

"everything WILL be okay. you're beautiful, and it's far more than skin deep. let it shine."

World's Wildest Architecture

TOO CUTE!

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Sadly, i'm sick. Came down with a fever last night, took medicine and got an allergy (eeew)! My eyes were swollen when i woke up in the middle of the night. Was contemplating whether to run the race this morning, in the end, i went. Seriously, i don't know if it was a good/bad decision. I nearly died (literally!) after finishing the run. My throat felt like it was on fire! Very happy that i didn't stop to walk during the run. Mind over body, yo! Anyway, came in 4th. Could've won if not for the famous amos cookies! Hahaha. (esther will know what i mean!)

Anyway, got a Bak Kut Teh lunch treat near Mohd Sultan there. Nice eating with the track mates! Then, my body temperature started rising again. I had goose bumps all over on a scorching hot sunday! I felt cold, can you believe it!

Everything that happened after that was just a blur cos i was in a numbing state of mind. I remembered esther coming to my house, talked about karate, ate green bean soup, watched star tv then her leaving before i took 2 panadols, had a warm bath then going to bed str8. Woke up 2hrs later, was sweating like a pig! Haha. (don't ask me why, i just think pigs sweat!)

Had dinner with my family @ mushroompot near the Indoor Stadium. Some kinda steamboat, its quite good although crazy ex. I've been having good dinners lately. Thanks coach!

I'm sick means no training means rest day means i can meet clare tmr! Whooyay! We're going down to the food expo. Tues last day!!! Hurry get your butts down! If you miss it, you're missing something AWESOME! Hahaha.

Okok enough. Too long of an update. Gotta bathe, take pandaol and zzzzzzzzz~
NIGHTS!

Saturday, May 24, 2008 @ 3:39 PM

clarke quay 20

Tomorrow is SP's Clarke Quay 20 race. I feel so uncomfortable and shizzy right now! I think i ate too many famous amos cookies just now. The inside of my body feels like its gonna explode soon! Urrrrggh. I hope i dont come down with any illness. Go away heaty heat!

Hope i run well for tmr's 4km race. Its gonna be scorching hot! Yeah yeah after that we'll be going down to food expo! This week's the last week of school! Whooyay! Track camp this fri. Think i'm flying out of spore during the June hols. A break!

Ok gotta go PP now to get stuffs then off to friend's bday party.

ENJOY! AND WISH ME LUCK FOR TMR!!!

Sunday, May 18, 2008 @ 10:36 PM

postsecrets

"It’s funny. When you think of someone saving a life, you think of them doing some great heroic act. When really, sometimes it’s just being there for someone, so they don’t do something incredibly tragic."

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WOW THATS TRUE.

Saturday, May 17, 2008 @ 12:29 AM

HILARIOUS!

PLEASE ENJOY!!!

Thursday, May 15, 2008 @ 5:19 PM

I'm sick sick sick. :( Woke up to a sore throat and phlegmy nose this morning. I seriously felt like i had my throat cut when i tried to swallow my saliva. Ouch! Sucks to be sick. I think its yilin's contaigous virus!!!

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Just some overdue pictures from..

11th May,
James 21st birthday!

The funny thing is that he's not in any of these pics! Hahaha. He did came over to us, but when we were about to take a picture, my fantastic cam went flat..

gay

guys

Then the see-saw action starts...

and ends after a while.

supposed to act silly!

Actually that's james there, but headless.

If i remembered correctly (it was last wk), he catered BOTAK JONES for dinner! Sooo good. Damn. The F1 bday chocolate cake, although looked quite -_-, was deliciously chocolatey!

After the celebration, we crossed over the Kallang bridge(?) to the indoor stadium. The lightings made the place looked so romantic at night. A pity, i couldn't snap any pic. But please, take your bf/bff/bffe there!!

xoxo
Wish me well.

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 @ 12:42 AM

not gonna steer me away from my passion

I really thought i was going down on the ground today, like collapsing. My breathing was hard and unpleasant, it was irritating but i couldn't stop it! 1st time this's happening and it scared the boobs (not balls) outta me. =O

Saturday, May 10, 2008 @ 1:35 AM

I really hope we have break even our mother's day sales and cost price from the past 3 days. It'll be quite a feat actually, given the fact that our grp did not put in 100% effort & time.
Urgh, im so tired! Haven't rest/recovered fully since sun's race. Alas! Sat & Sun! 2 days of pure relaxtion and enjoyment without any training.
I had one of the best dinners tonight! Followed the sprinters out for dinner @ Mr Prata. The milo dinosaur, prata bomb, chocolate tissue prata, mutton soup and nasi from the nasi briyani were delectable! So filling and full but so good! Had difficulty walking str8 after that, haha!
Was also invited to James bday party, which is tmr. I need a massage sooo bad and get my momma a mother's day pressie.

Okkkkkkkk i want to go watch a movie now.
ENJOY THE WEEKENDS YA'LL!

(stay smart not beautiful!) appearence doesn't mean a shizz if you have no initiative!

Thursday, May 8, 2008 @ 10:54 PM

SUPPORT SUPPORT!

Btw, the venue is outside FOODCOURT 6, MLT12!

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Overdue pictures from 4th May!
The day i had my first Duathlon race. (3km run, 15km cycle, 3km run)

Ling er & myself

Alvin! Haha, we look so awkweird!

My bike in the transition area.

After the race:

Ling er being cute! (no pun intended)

sweaty and tired but happy!

I look so white standing beside them! Haha.

Ling er won 2nd for her womens 20-29yrs category.

While Alvin won 3rd for his guys 16-19yrs category.
(notice the guy in red suit! hahaha.)

And i got 4th for girls 16-19yrs category, so no prize presentation. :[ Haha!

My next race's on 25th may, SP's Clarke Quay 20!
Come down support if you can!

THE WEEKENDS ARE FINALLY HERE!!! Friday friday friday.

Wednesday, May 7, 2008 @ 12:19 AM

boastful is not graceful!

SO DAMN PROUD OF MYSELF, SERIOUSLY SERIOUS.

I MANAGED TO FINISH DECORATING ALL 12 CARDS WITHNIN 2HRS BY MYSELF EVEN THOUGH I AM SO TIRED FROM TRACK TRAINING TODAY.

I like to think myself having reach a level of discipline and time management. HAHAHA

Ok not funny. FRIENDSTER IS FRIGGED UP!

zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Sunday, May 4, 2008 @ 10:57 PM

habit of postitive thinking

"Our inner critics are truly like demons withnin us. They bring us down and make us feel bad about ourselves. These demons attack our weakest areas, whether its about a friend, a guy, an extra few pounds or a relationship with a parent. Inner critics are in us all. Self-realisation is the best way to stop these demons. Find out what your demons are and take back control."

- an article from DOVE

I think this is so true! Women are so critical about themselves. WE CAN HAVE POSI+IVE THOUGHTS, BUT THATS IF YOU DECIDE TO!

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Today's race was good. Enjoyed it! Duathlon is fun!
I'm so tired now. Woke up at 5am this morning..

Nights!

Saturday, May 3, 2008 @ 10:15 PM

Duathlon; run bike run

GOOD LUCK GRACE, YOU CAN DO IT TMR!!!

ALL THE WAY!

Thursday, May 1, 2008 @ 12:35 PM

Irresponsible and empty promises

HATE IT.

"I will do this..."
"I can do this..."
"I can meet you..."

Trust doesn't come easily!

I know this year's gonna be difficult for me.

GOD, PLEASE BE HERE FOR ME.